I'm so confuse...

My heart beat really fast as i'm writing this...i'm not sure why...i dunno what to do...i'm so confuse...i'm clear enough that i'm doing something that i'm not suppose to do..stepping into the world that i'm not suppose to step..but my heart and my feeling driving me so strongly that i'm loosing control..sigh..why someone can affect me so much..i try..i really try not to..i'll learn not to rush..i'll learn to wait..and at the end of the day..i'll boldly tell myself..is worthwhile waiting =)